I took my first test in medical school!
To be completely honest, I felt awful for the majority of last week. My racing thoughts were filled with anxiety and stress, doubting myself and my potential to succeed in medical school. I felt overwhelmed by the extensive amount of material we were expected to retain and understand, and for the first time in my life, I questioned my decision to pursue such a gargantuan goal. My doubts didn’t stem from lack of passion and fulfillment (because I know without a doubt that this was my purpose in life), but instead my doubt stemmed from a lack of confidence in myself. I have never been afraid to fail, but last week I found questions floating through my head such as, “What if I can’t pass this test, no matter how hard I study? What if I’m not as smart as all of my incredible classmates?”
Not only did I pass,
but I ACED my first test!!
I am so thrilled and ecstatic and overflowing with pride and excitement and confidence! I can do this, people! Yes, it is rigorous and time consuming and entirely exhausting and draining, but I AM DOING IT and LOVING IT and I cannot tell you how happy I have been since that test!
Here’s a few pictures summing up my last week:
I was walking out of school after a really long day, and stopped to stare at this beautiful piece of art in the main lobby. I was blown away by the sunlight reflecting off the glass, and hurried to snap a photo as Marcos impatiently shouted at me to hurry up. Never forget to relish in the small pleasures in life!
Marcos soaking in the sunlight, right before we walked into our first exam!
Marcos sleeping through every single lecture…
As a gift on my white coat ceremony, my mother gave me these tiny Mayan worry dolls. I dedicated this little man to take the worry from me for my first test, and I KID YOU NOT – these little things are the best blessing ever! He swept all of my worries away, and now get’s to rejuvenate by my water fountain while his partners take their turn for my upcoming tests!